meorae

I am f***ing stressed right now and I've already snapped at my brother and dad and argh. FU teachers and projects and so many things that I am left to plan. And I'm pretty close to just saying, no we aren't going to see brokeback mountain cause as it is, I won't get a moment's rest this weekend and I need it. In addition, I seem to be the only one who is doing any research on theaters/tickets, asking any questions and actually organizing this trip at all. And I don't need to be responsible for getting all of us to Brokeback Mountain in addition to everything else. This week has taken like a month to go by and there are so many things due and so much other homework and all my friends are getting sick and damnitall, I need a break. And I won't be getting that this weekend and then winter break is only a week long this year and I'll be working on the 20 page paper during that time. I'm going to completely snap sometime soon and I'm sorry to everyone when I do. I went to bed crying last night and have nearly cried twice today. And homework in addition to planning this brokeback mountain thing and what I'm giving people for gifts and this history project and this science paper and all my friends and their problems and I want to bash my head in. I probably shouldn't be listening to groban obsessively as that's just making me feel worse. I should probably have skipped babysitting and taken a nap or something, but I didn't. I'm sorry to everyone if I snap at you or don't talk to you or whatever. And I don't want sympathy, I just needed to write this. Now time for me to go jump off a cliff and start all my stupid homework.

*pleaseletushaveasnowdaypleasepleaseplease*