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[meorae]

I am f***ing stressed right now and I've already snapped at my brother and dad and argh. FU teachers and projects and so many things that I am left to plan. And I'm pretty close to just saying, no we aren't going to see brokeback mountain cause as it is, I won't get a moment's rest this weekend and I need it. In addition, I seem to be the only one who is doing any research on theaters/tickets, asking any questions and actually organizing this trip at all. And I don't need to be responsible for getting all of us to Brokeback Mountain in addition to everything else. This week has taken like a month to go by and there are so many things due and so much other homework and all my friends are getting sick and damnitall, I need a break. And I won't be getting that this weekend and then winter break is only a week long this year and I'll be working on the 20 page paper during that time. I'm going to completely snap sometime soon and I'm sorry to everyone when I do. I went to bed crying last night and have nearly cried twice today. And homework in addition to planning this brokeback mountain thing and what I'm giving people for gifts and this history project and this science paper and all my friends and their problems and I want to bash my head in. I probably shouldn't be listening to groban obsessively as that's just making me feel worse. I should probably have skipped babysitting and taken a nap or something, but I didn't. I'm sorry to everyone if I snap at you or don't talk to you or whatever. And I don't want sympathy, I just needed to write this. Now time for me to go jump off a cliff and start all my stupid homework.

*pleaseletushaveasnowdaypleasepleaseplease*

Comments

[acern.livejournal.com]

Geh. I'd reccomend staying home when you feel like that. It helps. *Pets*

[meorae.livejournal.com]

But I don't see it getting any better and I'd have to make up like 3 quizzes and all the work and I'll feel better on Monday, even if I'll be doing things every second of every minute of every day this weekend. I might stay home tomorrow, though, if I still feel like I do now in the morning.

[sana-gale.livejournal.com]

^^ Don't worry about the movie, your well being is much more important.
Good luck with all that work and with feeling better. *hugs*

[cbizkit.livejournal.com]

*SYMPATHY*

We totally don't have to go to Brokeback if you don't want to. Or if you want to see it but not organize it, I could organize it.

I totally feel your pain. And everyone else is feeling exactly the same. I think we should just go to the teachers and be like look, you're absolutely killing us here.

[meorae.livejournal.com]

I want to go, I just don't want to be the only one organizing it. If you could figure things out instead of me, I'd appreciate it a lot.

I know and that just adds to my problem cause everyone else is complaining and stressed and I want to make them feel better and then I feel the same and blah.

We totally should. Just cause we're in honors classes does not mean we need 10 hours of homework every night and tests/huge projects every other week. But every time anyone else has mentioned it, my teachers have told that person that if they can't handle it, they should drop down. And that's crap.

[arsinyk.livejournal.com]

...10 hours? What the fuck homework do you -have-? It takes me forever, but that's just cause I'm incoherant with exhaustion because I'm physically incapable of sleeping before like 4 am.

I have like ... occasionally English, Spanish which I do during homeroom, science which I don't bother with half the time (might explain my grades, but I figure a B+ isn't that bad), math which I also rarely actually do (and can still pass the tests) and art which I do over the weekends. Occasionally I have lab write ups for science, and I'm -supposed- to be working on my science project, but other than that, it's really not that different from last year, except that I'm more exhausted.

[meorae.livejournal.com]

First off, I was exaggerating...

But even so, I have an hour or so of english every night, around half an hour each of history, science and math on most nights and then spanish which I finish in homeroom or during lunch and pottery which I do over the weekend. And then like every other week, around 4 projects are assigned all at the same time in addition to tests in every single class. And I'm actually doing my homework this year as I'm on the borderline between a b+ and an a- in most of my classes and the homework grade keeps me at the a-.

As I mentioned to Rachel, the main reason it stresses me out is the fact that I grew used to spreading half an hour of homework over like 4 hours due to the fact that I only needed to do half an hour of homework every night and I didn't have enough hobbies to keep me amused during the 6 hours of free time I would have otherwise. So I'm extremely ineffective at getting my homework done now. It's not only that I procrastinate, it's also that it now takes me 4 hours to do what it used to take me and takes everyone else only half an hour to do.

The thing is, I've been coming home by 5 and starting my homework and not finishing until like 10 subtracting the time it takes me to eat dinner and shower. So basically, I go to school, I hang around after school, I do homework and then I sleep. And then it repeats again.

[arrowwhiskers.livejournal.com]

Aww, I had no idea you had so much work! :\ I'll do a -special- snow dance for you. Because you'll make it through it, and it's okay. ^^

I'd offer to take charge of organizing moviestuffs, but my sick:antisick ratio isn't reliable enough. ~.~; Basically, what I think you should do is make definite plans with people whom you're carpooling with, and then just tell everyone else when/where you're going, and invite them to join you, if they'd like to. If people want to go, it's pretty much their responsibility to figure out how and if they're going to get there, you shoudn't be in charge of much more than meeting up with others. Especially if you're really stressed and don't need more.

[meorae.livejournal.com]

I certainly don't have as much work as you do, but I have the 20 page science paper, a history project, a number of tests and quizzes to study for and then my normal amount of homework (around half an hour for each class). And my main problem is the fact that over the years of learning everything quickly and being ahead in my classes, I've become extremely ineffective at getting my homework done in a productive manner. So this year with a helluva a lot more homework than last year, I'm having trouble getting everything done in the way I've gotten used to, which involved spreading half an hour of homework over 4 hours so I wouldn't get bored with 6 hours of free time every night.

That's a good idea, and that's what I was planning to do in the beginning, but then people seemed to be expecting us all to go together and I've been trying to figure out how that would work and it's not going to. And I dunno. I'll figure it out tomorrow.