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Blah. I finally asked teachers today about recommendations. Morgenbesser said he'd be happy to write me a recommendation but Skitsis said she didn't have enough time (seeing as basically everyone who had her last year - and she only teaches juniors - has asked her) and would prefer it if I asked someone else. And I don't know who to ask... I had back-up ideas for if Morgenbesser said he couldn't (such as Kraus, Bookston or Flynn), but haven't thought through any other Englishy teachers. Richardson would probably write me a wonderful one, but she's from sophomore year, so I don't know. Tobin/Mccarthy/Camelio all would probably write me one, but I've only been in their classes for a month and I don't know if the recommendation will be strong enough. Magil would definitely write me a good recommendation, but I already have a mathy rec, and I hated Magil as a teacher. And other than Konstandakis, who doesn't really know me, and Bob, who isn't an academic teacher, those are all of my teachers from the past two years.

And then, my grandmother is dying. I don't know if I can deal with this right now. My mom left for New York this morning to say goodbye. Based on what my parents have told me, my grandmother doesn't want any form of life support and will most likely die sometime in the next week. She's my last grandparent. And I don't know.